Yesterday was a clinic day for Samuel. I'm not quite sure how it had happened, but his last clinic visit was several months ago...maybe 4 or 5? Don't fret, he's been seen at this HTS visits by his usual physician. But yesterday he saw another CF clinic team member, the nurse practitioner. Wait, let me back up.
Since Samuel was little, he's had trouble gaining weight. First sign something was up (if you don't count the time the doctor said "Your son has cystic fibrosis") was his inability to get back to his birth weight at the usual 2 week mark. He takes enzymes and those help but his daily caloric goal is 2,000+. Yes, that's more than I need. I'm not a betting gal, but if I were, I'd put money on this: He's never reached his goal in one day. Ever. In which case, it's pretty impressive he's doing so well maintaining his weight...what with all the running he's doing. every. single. day. Just ask his Papa E. Our vacation was filled with the phrase "Chase me!"
Kevin and I have always joked that we knew how concerned the nutritionist was with Samuel's weight gain (or lack thereof) based on what order they came in the room. If the doctor came in first, not a huge deal. If the RD (registered dietitian) came in first, we knew he didn't meet his goal. I'm pretty sure we've seen the RD before the MD since he was about 10 months old and yesterday was no different.
For those keeping track, our most favorite CF doctor, Dr. O, moved away and Samuel had to get a new one, Dr. R. Dr. R is great, but my oh my, Dr. O set the bar rather high. At our final visit with Dr. O in February, he was the first to mention a g-tube. Of course, at the time, this was something that we did not want for our son. We've still tossed the idea around but we aren't making appointments with surgeon or anything. The team still wants us to consider it, even though Samuel's situation is so variable. Technically, his growth is normal. His weight to height ratio is putting him between the 10th and 25th percentile. Totally normal for a typical child. Unfortunately, Samuel isn't quite typical - with CF and all. We understand this could be just what Samuel needs but have some more research to do to see if it's the best decision for our family.
I'd like to take this chance to say WE STILL BELIEVE. Well, ok, to shout it out.
Of course we still believe. We never gave up believing. And, thankfully, I know a God who can and who does every single day. He's in the miracle performing business. And, furthermore, it is my belief that until God chooses to do something fabulous through Samuel, it's my God-given responsibility and commitment to my son, to make sure he is (and we are) faithfully doing his treatments, taking his meds, and doing the absolute best we can to treat his disease. It is my belief that God has let this (CF) happen to Samuel and our family. It is, after all, something we all deal with, not just Samuel. It is also my belief that God gave someone, scientists...researchers...doctors, the knowledge and ability to come up with drugs and treatments to extend the lives of people with cystic fibrosis. In my opinion, it would be foolish to ignore those drugs and treatments, or even to ignore the diagnosis. Sounds crazy, right? I've heard of it happening.